I didn’t know how bad that wall in the laundry room was until the black-board and pictures came down.
I’ve lived pleasantly with this wall for decades. Why now? The desire was there.
Amazingly, I’m not whirling through the house anxiously cleaning. No fretting. This has to be God! I’m just not that well-adjusted.
Life keeps handing me assignments WAY over my pay grade – but isn’t that the way the Lord does it?
God creates the desires He wants us to desire long before the work starts. You see, these walls coming down are a part of a bigger plan that started taking shape in my heart a year ago – long before I understood why.
Friends say, “I don’t know why you’re doing that. You take on too much. You need to take it easy.” (I love my friends – and I do listen.) But, when God gives you the interest in something, it never feels like too much work.
I used to sing daily. I sang my prayers, I practiced long hours, and composed songs. Now? I never think about singing.
The transition kicked up a lot of dust. I worried about my lack of interest, and tried very hard to manufacture that old desire. But, it felt like continuously re-patching the old wall that was meant to come down. The desire of my heart was simply changing.
It drove me to God, but instead of restoring my desire to sing, He gave me a new desire to write, and do art.
When desires are changing, it’s easy to misunderstand what’s going on. The world might label it depression, but maybe it’s God at work. The key is to remain devoted to Him, and trust His plan.
I was talking to my son about singing once day, and God spoke through him. “Mom,” he said. “You either trust God or you don’t.”
Dear Lord, Give us wisdom to understand the seasons. Help us keep our eyes on You. In Jesus name, Amen.